Lose 5 - 10kg

by Genevieve
(Cape Town, South Africa)

When my mom committed suicide last year, one week before my 30th birthday,(back then I weighed approximately 60kg - 65kg I'm 6ft5 1/2) I did not know how to deal with the kaleidoscope of feelings I was experiencing, the most prominent being intense pain and loss.

I missed her so much. I missed speaking to her three times a day, I missed getting her 10 daily text messages. As a result I didn't know where to channel my pain, or how to fill the massive, mammoth void left by my mother's death.

So I ate. And I ate. Then I ate some more. I couldn't stop eating. I didn't particularly do it because I loved food or because I was enjoying eating so much, I did it to try and fill the Herculean sized hole in my heart.

As a result, 16 months later, I now weigh 85kg. I am short, the weight does not suit me whatsoever and I want to be healthy again. I know it will be a long process but I am committed to losing this weight naturally. I don't know if it's easy to lose 10kg in 5 months. Sounds easy -- that's only 2kg per month, but I already have a very slow metabolism.

I want to fit into my old clothes again. I have such beautiful clothes, many of which were gifted to me by my precious mother. I want to go to the mall and not be embarrassed. I dread bumping into old friends or any friends because of my massive weight gain. I want to be excited to see old friends again. Basically, I want my life back!